i think im getting sick again. so tired, groggy, sneezing, nose. i sound like a nyquil commercial.

home alone this weekend. might go to the car show for a little bit to see pop-pops antique tomorrow. i need friends.

i've been avoiding sleep because BoB doesn't cut it for me anymore.

i have an interview tomorrow and i'm nervous. do i like kids enough to take photographs of them all day? or do i like the money i'll be getting for doing it? i suppose i'll find out if i get the job.

Current Mood: melancholy

i need an excuse to leave PA. couple days ago i had a convo with some friends about leaving your home for another person thousands of miles away and how insane that was. i thought about it today during traffic that i probably would do that. then i thought about: am i doing it because i'm taking a chance on love or am i doing it because i'm lonely and i'm willing to take whatever affection i can get? south central PA lesbians or ftms = slim pickin's.

side note: saw "Me and You and Everyone We Know" tonight and i have to say it was pretty good. i'm going to start getting out more even if i'll be alone.

Current Mood: okay

i need (more) straight friends. hard to find a partner when i only hang with gay guys.

3 hours of sleep and i'm watching reality bites. i've reappeared but only temporary. BoB and sascha are getting along..they can eat at the same time. BoB's sitting in the corner of my mom's bed and i'm going to go eat a plum.

Current Mood: complacent

pride saturday sucked but i'm not going to let bullshit ruin my next one.

its starting to kick in..sigh

Current Mood: lonely

hmm..i dont have anything to report..

i saw batman begins last night...it was really cool...some things didnt add up though but oh well...

too much drama has been going on lately and i am staying out of it. aka staying at my moms. armel is in town and thats the most important thing right now. darick has off weekends which is good. ran into my moms old drinking partner, ironically, at the bar. alan is done finally. looked for some places in harrisburg yesterday for october. took my civil service test. started packing. went to the pa bakery. going to nation saturday. thats it.

Current Mood: tired

sooo yeah...................um.......

armel is back!


that is all.

Who are you?
Are we friends?
If we've met, when and how did we meet?
What social event or place would you like to go to with me?
Would you kiss me?
Describe me in one word.
What was your first impression?
Do you still think that way about me now?
What reminds you of me?
If you could give me anything what would it be?
How well do you know me?
When's the last time you saw me?
Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?



i dont know.

sooo darick is having a party on saturday. i'm suspecting a mass of gay men grabbing dicks and me with a lager in my hand in the corner.

my hair is growing.

amanda wont return my phone calls about our cancun tape she supposely now has.

chris wants to go to the beach friday.

i'm jonesing for a hot dog.

i'm down to ultra lights.

i process 90 apps a day.

my feet hurt.

i'm talking to crazy matt right now.

i got a dvd at best buy and it ended up being a softcore lesbian and s/m porn.

i think about the past too much alone and with donchak.

i'm gonna get a beer now.

so i saw star wars last night/this morning and it was great. i LOVED it. i didnt like how padme died(yeah i'm not giving that away..its known) but that was my only problem with it. hayden something or other was excellent when turned into darth vader(before he got the creepy black mask/helmet thing). the ending was moving though we all know what happens. so yeah, my half assed review cuz i'm tired.

tomorrow i'm leaving from work to spend the weekend with ken..you all remember him, the dude that used to live in DC...thats going to be so much fun. and i miss him so much. now we are both working and getting our shit together we can see each other. he said we are going to sleep in a tent sometime this weekend lol that should be fun. well i gotta finish packing and you all have a good weekend....

Current Mood: happy

sooo i finally saw episode one and two of star wars tonight with chris. i wanted to wait till it was closer to the opening of the 3rd one. i was impressed. i'm not a big sci-fi person so i never watched star wars movies until now. i just saw the last three a few months ago. i'm curious about the 3rd one...i'm trying not to look up spoilers for the movie, better to be surprised. all i can say is that it better be good because i'm a little excited..

Current Mood: tired

ikea rules

Current Mood: anxious

i just did a brief duet of beauty school dropout with chris

hee hee just wanted something to get everyones attention.

operation moto will be in effect hopefully saturday. i'm going to try and kidnap ken from his roommates...will the plan be successful? hopefully. okay its late and im tired. num num. remember what i said about jesus chris...maybe you'll stop actin' a fool :)

Current Mood: crazy

all i have to say is that this was one of the best weekends i've had since i went to see chante for new years a few years ago. lol wow...friday, dirty skater twinks, saturday, meeting a straight guy at a gay club while he is telling his friends he wants to keep me. armel is back!!! he gave the dude an 8 out of 10 which considering how picky armel is..thats awesome. he danced with a few guys, lol didnt take him long to lose the shirt and belt. chris and tony had a good time, hell we all had a great time :D tomorrow i might go down in the evening and see that guy from saturday. well thats all ill say...ciao.

Current Mood: giddy

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!

finally i found skaters to hang out with!!!!

its 3:27am, do you know where your children are? yeah, i dont have much to say tonight except tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock...christopher will get me :) okay chizaoas

Current Mood: drunk

going to nation on saturday with ARMEL! and christopher and maybe sara and christophers boyfriend. i hope it doesnt turn into the trip it was last year lol. the road trip that wasn't SUPPOSED to be a road trip. im making another movie list. so far i have about 210 and that was in a 20 minute period. the house is good i guess..i hope to get the hebrew hammer on dvd if i can find it. i actually spent a whole 4 days with my mom while my gdad was in montana and i enjoyed it. we watched the butterfly effect which...was kinda lame. but interesting. okay im going to go because chris is here. FRANZ FERDINAND HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: happy